11/10/2023-15/10/2023

We stayed with my auntie Noha for a short time whilst the attacks continued on Gaza but my stress levels weren’t getting any better so me and Mama decided to move to a flat near my cousin’s house where we’d spend time just dealing with issues. It is just shocking that churches and hospitals are being targeted it is so unjust and criminal to do so. Killing children is a war crime.

16/10/2023

Then at the time it was like a moment of clarity came through to my head where ive decided to definitely take action to help my home town  so I set up a fundraiser to help MECA’s projects in Gaza which Mama is heavily involved in setting up as she’s the project director for MECA in the Gaza strip. So the fundraiser was mainly for an ICU unit and for essential kits for kids to make use off in the situation of a war like this. I have decided that along with the fundraiser that I am doing is to set up a translation group for my family where we translated for a news agency that is reporting what is happening on the hour.

17/10/2023-18/10/2023

I was still worrying for my family whilst the ongoing attacks by the Israeli military was happening, it felt really devastating.  My friend Mohammed al Majadalwi was in a similar boat to me he came to visit gaza from Sweden to see his sisters.

19/10/2023-28/10/2023

In my broken heart I keep thinking about friends inside Gaza and how they are coping with being displaced all the time , each time I wake up to the feeling that i will be losing one family member or other.

Whilst being in Cairo I could not keep up with the terrifying stress that ive been through so I had a relapse in my mental health I just could not keep it together at all. My mum took me to the emergency psychiatrist where I received an injection and some sedative medication.

29/10/2023-30/10/2023

My doctor recommended to rest for now and to separate my self from the stressful news and do my hobbies. So I started using painting as a tool to relief all my anxieties. My main concern was the innocent kids who are trapped in Gaza and what their future will be like after the war is over, it is so tragic and so upsetting to think that our identity will be erased and that we might not be even able to remember events that happened to us. Over the course of 75 years of Israeli occupation and ethnic cleansing. I agree with peace negotiations but that peace needs to be based on justice and full rights to the Palestinians so that they can live in their land freely along with communities like they used to do before.